June 2019

Some things cannot be explained or verified.  I was studying in a public place today.  I am a people watcher and I am always watching with my spiritual ears on, waiting for instruction from Jesus.  I noticed an older black woman walking by, seriously favoring her right side. She limped and held her right arm in a way that was drawn-up and very close to her body.  Jesus told me to go pray for her.  First, there are others like her there – with problems – and it’s not like I am super-sympathetic to any one type of person or perception that would draw me to pray for anyone.  However, I heard Him say “Go pray for her.”  Then the prideful questions set in:  “This is a public place?”, “What if You don’t heal her?”, “Will they accept my praying for them?” and so on.  Fear jumped on me.  I fought the feeling to pray for her, and finally He said “You tell me to give you people to pray for.  Go pray for her.”  So, I got up, approached where they were sitting and asked them, “Do you believe in Jesus?”  The husband responded, “We just came from church” to which I commented “I know” because they were dressed to the nines on Sunday afternoon.  Where else would they have been?  I explained that I noticed her walking across the room and Jesus told me to pray for her.  They responded positively.  I asked why she was favoring her right side as she was walking.  She told me she had a stroke, so I began.  I prayed against the one who causes stroke, called for healing from its effects, and nothing special happened but they started praying with me in unison.  When I got done, she said “Thank you.”  So, why am I sharing this story with you?  Something special happened immediately after she said “Thank you.”  The husband looked at me and said, “Don’t be afraid to let the Lord manifest his healing through you.”  What?  How did he know I was scared?  Was this the Holy Spirit speaking to me through him?  Coincidence?  I don’t know, but I went back to where I was sitting and cried.  What he said felt powerful to me.  I felt like Jesus was giving me a message, something like “This is the ministry I’ve given you.  Don’t be afraid to do it.”  I don’t know if the woman was healed or not, but the Lord does these things for His glory; whether for her healing or for a message for me or even the reader of this letter; who knows.  All I know is these types of things are ramping up in the past couple years, I cannot explain the feelings I get, and Jesus has told me to go Public with all this stuff.