Voices

October 2019

I met an interesting character at his place of business a couple weeks ago and I got a feeling about him.  We will call him “Black Bird.”  I asked Jesus about Black Bird and He answered, “Satanist.”  Sometimes, when Jesus gives me something like this, it’s like I hear one word but there are additional meanings to the word and more messages attached to the meanings.  I knew Jesus wanted me to engage this guy so I called where he works and scheduled an appointment to come in to see him.  Allow me to backtrack.  The first time I met Black Bird I feel as if Jesus is telling me “Musician.” Well, guess what?  He is!  Black Bird’s a rapper.  His genre is Horrorcore Rap, he’s signed to a label and travels to perform.  He gives me his website and tells me, “Check out my music;” I do and learn Black Bird uses lyrical phrasing such as “rip your throat” and “kill, kill, kill.”  Now, back to today’s meeting.  On the way to meet Black Bird, Jesus tells me “Voices.”  As we we’re speaking his rapping comes up and I ask, “Do you hear voices?”  When I do, he’s astonished, surprised, and opens up immediately.  As our conversation advances, I boldly ask, “Are you a Satanist.”  He tells me, “I practice Satanism, but currently I’m agnostic.”  Did you hear that?  An agnostic Satanist! 

Black Bird also suffers from dissociative identity disorder, as does Moku from my article Coffee with Demons.  Both these individuals accept their demonic friend’s presence and problems.  “What’s the tradeoff,” the reader may ask?  Quasi-creativity.  Moku admits he has two muses/personalities/demons and Black Bird has four.  One of Black Bird’s demons is named “Lil’ God.”  Moku tells me he refers to himself as “God” and – in Moku’s article – I parallel Jay Z calling himself Savior, J-Hova, etc.  There is a theme here, reader.  These entities want acknowledgement; worship if you will. 

Let’s go back to when Jesus tells me “Satanism,” but Black Bird tells me he’s “agnostic.” He practices Crowleyan Satanism which is a gateway for demonic entry. These demons attach and aren’t going anywhere, I don’t care how agnostic he claims to be. They’re still working in him and he tells me he hears them communicating with him…just as Moku does. He might not be actively practicing Satanism, currently, but he has willfully given the spirits of Satanism legal right to his person. I ask Black Bird to lunch, expressing my interest to learn more about his experience with Satanism – I am completely open about my relationship to Jesus Christ by the way. He happily accepts and gives me his cell-phone number.

November 2019

Today I met with Black Bird for the first time on neutral ground (outside of his place of business).  I have met with him twice before today and these are the reasons he wanted to meet personally:  (1) The first time we met the Spirit told me “Musician” to which he confirmed “I am.  I’m a rapper.”   (2) After that Jesus told me “Satanism,” so I challenged and he confirmed that as well.  (3) Then Jesus nudged me to allude to “other voices” to which he responded in amazement, “I have four.”  Christians act weird when they hear that Jesus is speaking to one of them.  For one involved in occult practices, this is standard operating procedure.  Black Bird is a 6’2”, 240 lb., 37 year old man.  Today, we first talked about his career in music.  He expressed dissatisfaction with the music industry as a whole: how the labels he’s been associated with have stolen from him and deceived him.  He does receive royalties every quarter for the music he has legal rights to, but most of his creative property has been stolen. He can’t even perform some of it because of contractual wording he didn’t understand when he was younger.  I asked how he got involved in Satanism.  He responded that his father died when he was 16.  It was a huge hit to him.  He wondered, “If there was a God, why would he take away my father?”  At the same time he recognized a conscious shift in his understanding of everything.  I believe this was the time at least one of these beings entered his life; at a time of trauma and grief and he accepted their message as truth.  Things progressively got worse in his life so he drifted to Satanism.  At first he practiced an atheistic form of Crowleyan Satanism which claims not to believe in Satan.  This type focuses on self, making one’s self a god; hence, atheistic satanist.  Later he graduated to theistic Satanism.  This is the form of Satanism that believes in and makes Satan their god directly.  It is also the form of Satanism that requires sacrifice (both animal & human), blood rituals (blaspheming the OT rites), and orgy and other sexually immoral practices to provoke power from and the presence of certain entities.  (Ask me about the parallels between white and dark witchcraft).  The Red Hot Chili Peppers have an album called Blood Sugar Sex Magik.  This is the kind of Satanism The Chili Peppers are talking about. 

Getting back to his four demons, Black Bird admits they are real and are not imaginary.  From them he gets creativity to write songs, they always speak to him in his mind, and can cause him to have fits of strong rage. A couple of the demons he considers not so bad, but the others are extremely nefarious (he never claimed ANY to be “good” BTW).   He knows my Spirit is Jesus, so I believe he’s questioning to himself, “Who is this Jesus?” “Can I trust this Jesus?”  He does not like Christians!  I asked him why he’s speaking to me.  He said “I don’t know.  Through all my anxiety problems and dislike for Christians I feel really comfortable around you.  I feel comfortable telling you about these things.”  The gospel message was interwoven into this entire interaction, but at the height of our conversation on the Gospel he said, “Maybe there’s a God out there, but until I am presented with proof I will continue to believe as I do [“In myself”].”  The Spirit told me at this moment, “It’s in front of you right now.”  I reworded that statement and said to him, “Maybe that’s why we’re together.  Jesus wants me to introduce you to Him.”  I asked him, “Are you receiving any resistance from your ‘voices” right now?”  His eyes shot to the left and the right as he immediately responded “Yes.”  I asked him “Why would they have a problem with what I’m saying unless I propose a threat to them or their philosophy?”  He thought for a moment and agreed. 

I know he has a heart…A lady approached and hugged him at one of his shows in Oklahoma.  Her teenage son committed suicide, she told Black Bird her son was his biggest fan, and now she reminisces about her son through Black Bird’s music.  This made him cry at that show.  Also, something about Theistic Satanism turned him off.  These things show me that his conscious is not totally seared. It doesn’t matter what I think, Jesus wants him. 

November 2019

I woke-up to Jesus telling me something about Black Bird around 4:15 am this morning, to which I text him immediately, thinking “He will get it when he wakes up.”  The following conversation is remarkable to say the least.  I am documenting it for my purpose, but I thought I would share it with you as this is a special situation Jesus has placed me in with Black Bird.  Here is a verbatim text message string starting a couple days before Jesus spoke to me about him at 4:38am:

• • Me.  Thank you for the good conversation the other day.  I sense something real good in you.  I sensed it the first time I met you.  I hope we can get together again soon. 

• • No response from him

• • Me, two days later, 4:38am.  The ones we spoke about don’t want you talking to me.  They don’t want you to know the truth. 

• • Black Bird.  Not a problem brotha.  I had a good time.  Great conversation.  I’m definitely interested in meeting again, once we get thru this week at work haha.

• • Me.  Yes sir.

• • Black Bird.  How old were you when you first heard your voice?  Did you know right away that it was leading down the path you are on, or was there an internal struggle about it?  I’m just curious, as I’ve not really been able to conversate with another person that hears things.  You don’t have to answer if you don’t wanna, I was just curious.

• • Me.  Hey, no way, I want to talk about this.  Thanks for trusting me.  I was young when it first started happening and I don’t remember exactly a time but this thing started morphing into night visions, or dreams, and also visitations, so I have had all three.  There was never a question in my mind as to the nature of who I was speaking to.  On the other hand, I have had other beings, or voices, speak to me and I have known that they were nefarious. 

• • Me, a little time later.  Did I answer your question?  Cuz if I didn’t word that properly I can try again.

• • Black Bird.  Oh yeah definitely, sorry at work haha.  I just curious, having multiple different voices with different reasonings and motives makes it hard for me to understand my own path sometimes.

• • Me.  Totally understand sir.

• • Black Bird.  Do you know much about someone named Abaddon? [Notice how Black Bird spoke about this name as a person and not a thing]

• • Me.  YES.  He’s in the Bible.

• • Black Bird.  One of my voices used to talk about Abaddon a lot.  I haven’t heard the name in along time, but it was frequent when I was younger.

• • Black Bird.  Used to scare me, not gonna lie.

• • Black Bird.  I was up until 3am again last night thinking and I realized, It happened around the same time I lost my faith.  That’s why I bring it up, and asked if you knew of him.  [Black Bird uses the word “faith” to describe a time when his family used to take him to church.  I am under the understanding that he was never saved.  There is no conversion experience to speak of] 

• • Me.  Abaddon IS a straight up bad guy dude.

• • Me. Funny.  I woke up thinking about you last night.  That’s why I text you around 4:30.

• • Me.  We could use a couple more hours together and I can share my studies with you. 

• • Black Bird.  Definitely brother.  This week being Thanksgiving im pretty swamped at work.  Next week I’m off XXXXXX, if you have any free time. 

I will skip texts about scheduling and go to the next day when I felt led to ask Black Bird this question. 

• • Me.  Have you ever soul traveled…astral projection? 

• • Black Bird.  Wow, its actually pretty crazy you asked me that.  Me and my cousin used to try and do that all the time, around 2001 or so when I was really into the Satanic Bible and the Necronomicon and all that.  They speak very highly of that in those books, aligning yourself and focusing so much energy that you can leave your body.  It never really worked, although I swear multiple times I would see what appeared to be grey or black smoke rising off our bodies while attempting it.

• • Me.  We can talk about that also.

• • Black Bird.  Ok, awesome.  Its definitely something that has interested me.

I have no ambition to leave my body as the Bible is strictly against it without God being the author of it.  Paul had this experience, but it was sanctioned by God as it was with Ezekiel, John and others.  It is my understanding that people who leave the body, in spirit, for the purpose of projecting their spirit somewhere else, have to be “escorted” through these outside realms, such as when one dies.  Ask me about my experience with the 32 year old man I met in a church in Northern DC, who admitted to me he is a church infiltrator, had already destroyed two churches, has contracts with more demonic entities than he was years of age, is used by these demonic entities to astral project his spirit to cast demonic spells, etc.  Some witches do this, some Satanists, voodoo and other occult practitioners all do this, but is not lawful for the human spirit to leave his/her natural abode unless sanctioned by God.  To do so is related to necromancy, divination and sorcery which is punishable by literal death in the Old Testament and eternal death in the NT.  I am not sure why Jesus had me ask the question about astral projection, but I am sure He will reveal it when it is time. 

The fact that he is in communication with a direct subservient “voice” to Abaddon is extremely remarkable to me.  Abaddon is both a place and a being in both the OT, NT, many historic Jewish texts, and parallels with many of the attributes listed in gnostic writings.  Abaddon (Hebrew) is also Apollyon (Greek), the angel of death, the destroyer, a.k.a. “the angel of the bottomless pit” and the king of the Revelation 19 army of locusts.  This is a bad dude!  No wonder Black Bird was scared just hearing about this person from his subordinate. 

December 2019

Black Bird and I were supposed to meet today and, despite my attempts to communicate with him I haven’t heard from him in about a week.  After trying to confirm the appointment the last couple days and being in prayer for him I heard from the Holy Spirit that he was being interfered with by the enemy.  So, I sent him this message: “Is everything okay?  Are you getting resistance because of me [What we’ve talked about]?”  He replied immediately – after a week – and didn’t answer the question, but told me that he had been sick pretty much since our last meeting.  I asked if he would mind if I prayed for him (he knows I pray to Jesus).  He replied, “Yes, I would be okay with that.  Thank you.”  So, I did. I prayed against the beings causing him illness and asked Jesus to heal him in a way that he would recognize that Jesus did it.  A week later he told me the illness went away, but he did not give credit to Jesus because of our prayer. 

January 2020

Black Bird hasn’t text me back since last month.  This morning Jesus reminded me of a message He gave me for Black Bird, one that I hadn’t been able to deliver yet.  I text him and told Him “The Spirit that runs with me gave me a message for you” and I sent it. I really want to meet with him and talk about Abaddon.

January 2020

Black Bird finally communicates with me.  Sometimes there will be days or weeks before he will return my messages.  I am thankful that today he admits why.  He texts me, “Sorry i haven’t messaged u back. I have a bad habit of dodging people when im in bad mental health states. Im definitely down to meet up again.” The demons who have access to Black Bird torment him mentally.

February 2020

The last time we met, Black Bird was experiencing obvious resistance from one or more of his four possessing spirits.   Before we meet today, I bind the four demons in prayer.  Middle-way through our 2 ½ hour meeting, I noticed how calm he is and ask, “Any resistance today?” He responds, surprised, “No, nothing.”  I tell him, “Before we met I bound them in Jesus’ name so they wouldn’t be able to affect you during our conversation.”  He’s astonished at this and says they haven’t been present since just before our meeting.  Satanism teaches how weak Christianity and Christians are; and – for the most part – we are, without Jesus.  The fact that he is free from interference because of the prayer of a Christian speaks volumes to him. 

We talk about the Bible being a book about warring kingdoms, a seed war within humanity, the origin of fallen angels and demons, how and what humans were created to be by God and how we need His covering in this life and the next.  These topics speak in volume to Black Bird, because his previous understanding has been limited to warring against Christianity.  He’s starting to discover the lie.  In regard to these spirits, two are very docile, almost as if they’re just “happy to be there” he says.  When the most dominant spirit is around the others cower in his authority.  Black Bird tells me, “The two who are the most docile actually tell me ‘He’s not here.  Don’t say his name or he’ll come back.’”  I believe the one second in rank to the dominant one is the one who tells Black Bird he serves Abaddon.  The only time Black Bird begins twitching and eye-shifting today is when we bring up Abaddon’s name and I read from my research on this character. He confirms later he feels resistance at that time, but it goes away.  We’re talking about the narrative of God being the perfect father.  His father figure died when he was young and he couldn’t relate.  We are able to triangulate the exact time these being enter his life (he is the one who comes to this conclusion, not me), what’s going on in his life at the time and the sin that opens the door…rebellion.  He also notices that when he’s been using (illegal substances) one of the more docile spirits gets aggressive.  This is the spirit below rage, the one who convinces him to put a 45 in his mouth and pull the trigger when he’s younger.  The gun doesn’t fire.  As he tells me this story, Jesus speaks to me that He’s the One who held the gun back from going off.  This touches Black Bird deeply as he gets choked-up.  He confides in me, “I don’t tell this story to many people.” 

March 2020

I wake-up talking to Jesus.  Jesus has given me the authority to cast Black Bird’s four oppressors from afar (Covid 19, social distancing).  I heard Jesus tell me to give Black Bird the opportunity to agree that he wants them gone…he may not be in agreement. 

April 2020

(Only days later from the last entry) This morning the message changed.  I asked Jesus if I could just pray for Black Bird’s deliverance now (from where I am, socially distanced).  He said ‘Yes,” so I take the authority Jesus gives me and target the lowest of the four demons inside him.  Black Bird knows there’s authority here because of what his demons tell him about me when we’re together. He knows they don’t like me and want him away from me – because they are threatened by the Holy Spirit that lives in me.  I text him and tell him what I’m going to do.  I tell him that I’m going to make the lowest one of the four go out of him, in the name of Jesus, so he will understand the power of my Lord and Savior.   Because of this Covid 19 deal, I can’t go into his place of business and he will not respond.  I am under the impression that the remaining three are extremely mad at him and probably tormenting him because of what Jesus did.  When all this is over we will get back together and he will put together more pieces of the puzzle. 

May 2020

Ever since I cast the “smallest” demon from Black Bird he has not responded to me…for like over a month now!  I have text him seven times since our last conversation – to including the message telling him I was casting out the lowest level demon in Jesus name – but, nothing back from him.  This evening I got a text message from him out of the blue.  This is the message:

I miss talking to you too bro, straight up.  My mental state has been really messed up this past month or so.  I’ve thought about our conversations many times.  Just hang in there with me brother.  Things will blow over and we will be able to sit and talk again.

And that was it.  I responded, but he did not.  I also asked how I could pray for him, but he did not respond to that either. 

October 2020

A lot has happened since the entry in May 2020.  Black Bird and I have spoken infrequently; more on the phone and texting than in person.  Since Jesus told me to pray out one of his demons, they have done rather well at keeping us apart.  I’m not sure if that demon has come back or not yet (probably did), but we put the fear of Jesus in them and they know He gave me authority over them. 

Just two days ago we had a pretty good conversation and I feel the need to give you an update.  As I have told you in the past, Black Bird is a rapper in the genre of Horrorcore.  He is signed by a recording label and tours for that label.  A few days ago he was in Oklahoma at a show, getting ready to go to Kansas.  We talked about how Covid has been affecting fan turn-out. We discussed his disappointment and laughed as we compared stories about performing in front of hostile, or the lack thereof, audiences.   

Black Bird knows he is demon possessed, but loves to hang with his crew who are possessed as he is.  Both he and his demons enjoy the fans reaction to their songs of murder and torture. They receive their fans as a form of worship.  I have listened to a couple of his songs and I shut them off.  The muses puppeteering Black Bird talk about what they’re going to do to his listeners, explaining blatantly how they are going to do it.  It’s pretty sick, but at the same time they are revealing their own nature.  He loves the notoriety of what he does, but hates the mental torture his demons put him through.  They speak their narrative through him, such as “WE ARE THE ONES WHO WERE, AND SHALL BE AGAIN.”  What they sing through Black Bird and his crew is spoken of in Ecclesiastes 1:9 and is no surprise to God.

He cries for help, but won’t let the demons go.  He doesn’t know how to trust Jesus.  The fact is, I believe he wants to be saved, but the “squatters” he’s allowed in are very strong, blind him, and influence his decision making (a veiling).  When I am sitting face-to-face with Black Bird, he is not the same guy who spits these demonically inspired lyrics. 

February 2021…Tyrants and Thieves

Today, no demons showed up for my meeting with Black Bird.  I was excited about our meeting today because it was his idea, not mine.  He approached me!  As I was praying, leading into our meeting, Jesus gave me a word for him, “You can be free” and I felt as if Jesus were giving me the authority to cast one of the “big” (higher ranking) demons out, if it came to it.  However, as I said, no demons showed up today. 

As far as “You can be free” goes, I attempted to give him that message in the beginning, but it didn’t feel right, so we moved on to smaller conversation.  After we were totally comfortable and joking, the opportunity presented itself halfway through and the remainder of our conversation seemed to revolve around that message. 

We spoke more about spiritual presence and I found that we have a lot in common.  We both like to talk about the supernatural relationships in our lives.  We speak the same language, only from the opposite sides of the river.  He tells me he can’t talk to anyone about this because he doesn’t want to be thrown in a mental institution and no one understands.  I tell him that no one wants to listen to me about this stuff because they think I’m insane and no one understands. 

“You can be free.”  No one can be free unless they realize they are a prisoner.  I asked Black Bird “What do they do for you that’s good for you?”  He responded with two points: (1) one gives me my creative ability.  (2) Another tells me when the “Big One” comes (he doesn’t like to use their names…conjuring).  I chose not to fight the first argument today.  They use him for worship.  They want to be worshipped through him when he performs their stuff, and Black Bird likes the attention, but it’s not really for him.  Second, the “Little One” only warns him about the “Big One” (highest ranking one) because the “Little One” doesn’t want the “Big One” around anyway.  He’s a nasty one!  So, he agreed, neither of these beings is really doing anything for him. 

They are not his friends!  In fact, they are tyrants and thieves.  They hurt him if he doesn’t do as they want or if he rejects them.  He told me sometimes one will spiritually “pound [me] in the head” and it’s very painful.  The demons will knock him out and take him over (full-blown possession) causing anything from fits of rage to creativity.  He played me his latest rap song, of which his creative demon “Lil god” wrote while he was out (not conscious, demon operating his body).  He woke-up and the song was completely written and recorded on his equipment.  His producer, he says, “Loves this one.”  The song is full of themes such as killing baby’s, sitting in their blood, ripping out his own tongue, etc. 

His girlfriend hates his demons…at least the top ranking two.  She has demons of her own and they are not nice to her.  One of her demons manifests as bi-polar and has put her in the hospital for nine months, for a reason we will not talk about here.  She knows not to approach Black Bird sometimes; because she can see his eyes are “hollow,” or his countenance is disturbing.  They both experience severe depression.

He knows what I do.  To his stories, there is always a counter with one of mine.  He was amazed at the number of demons which came out of the Beruvian Sinead, and that one of the high-ranking demons (Legion) in Baby said in fear (Day 3), “No, there he is” and how Jesus told me the demon was facing a merciless Satan awaiting his report of a failed assignment.  The parallel of this to his story is that his demons have no mercy on him either.  What he experiences is more like slavery.

He was heavily impacted today by these Biblical concepts in contrast to his spiritual relationships: (1) his yoke is heavy, Jesus offers a lighter one, (2) his demons do not act as friends, but Jesus laid down His life for His friends, one day the one being tormented will be turned over to his tormentors, and more. 

Before he came out to meet me today his girlfriend said to him, “You’re not going to accept Jesus today, are you?”  He told me this as he laughed and he didn’t, but the Truth is closer today than any other time we’ve met in the past.  He is genuinely intrigued with Jesus and asked if we could meet again next Wednesday. We didn’t meet however.

March 2021

Today, Jesus told me to go see Black Bird.  I walked into his place of business, he had time to talk with me, we moved aside to speak privately, and he quickly proposed a topic he was interested in.  He asked if I had ever heard of a being called Azazel.  I said, “Of course.  He’s another really bad guy in the Bible.”  One of Black Bird’s demons brought up Abaddon in the past, of whom that demon serves.  Black Bird said when the demon speaks of Abaddon, it gives him the chills.  When I asked why he was asking, he told me a couple of his voices were recently speaking to him about Azazel.  I asked what they said.  He responded, “They told me [in the context of serving Azazel] ‘Azazel is the god of tools, weapons, and fire.  Azazel is going to show you [Black Bird] his fire.’” 

Outside of the fact that this man has sentient demonic entities speaking to him inside the realm of his human consciousness is not the most remarkable thing happening here.  The fact that they are giving him information/intelligence concerning their ranking structure and generals is amazing to me.  They are giving up the goods! 

He asked what I knew about “fire.”  I shirked that there’s good fire and bad fire and returned the question.  He responded that he knows nothing of fire and has never heard of Azazel before recently and that he had been waiting for us to speak again so he could bring it up.  He went on to explain to me how he began to write lyrics for a new song after this occurrence.  How he has been allowing the demons to write all the work.  This is a form of automatic writing.  Automatic writing is used in modern spiritualism, where writing is produced involuntarily.  This can happen when the [demonic] host is awake or in a hypnotic trance…or in Black Bird’s case, possessed.  The song he allowed me to hear last month was also written in this form.  What is happening is Black Bird’s human influence or co-authorship is being hijacked.  For you Christians, Jesus want’s co-authorship of your life, giving you a piece of His authority.  With Black Bird, his agreement started out with him having 80% authority over what he produces musically, then 60%, then 40%, and now 0%.  The demons have now moved in and taken control over his creativity and use his platform for their purpose. 

Black Bird went on to tell me how one took over a few years ago and he lost six months of his life.  He lived with his brother who – when Black Bird came back – told him how much of an “@$$hole” he had been; meaning, he wasn’t himself, was hard to deal with and scary.  His girlfriend tells him, when he is “writing” Azazel’s fire his countenance changes, his pupils get tiny, and he is impossible to deal with; he is someone else! 

What does it mean that Azazel is showing Black Bird his fire?  I believe this means through Black Bird’s words Azazel’s fire will come.  Azazel’s fire is a counterfeit to the refining and purifying fire of god’s judgement.  Azazel’s fire is the curses, death, and lies (unholy knowledge; as in the knowledge that Adam & Eve partook of in the garden) which comes through the lyrics written by Azazel himself (or a high-ranking subsidiary) and posited into the Horrorcore rapper’s mouth, Black Bird.  Is this serious?  Yes.  Is Black Bird worried.  Yes.  I’ve never seen him like this.  Azazel is one of the fallen watchers (Gen 6; Enoch 7; Enoch 8) who came to earth and gave humankind forbidden knowledge: metal crafting, weapons, etc.  Azazel is the scapegoat; not in the sense of Christ or His sacrifice, but the one of whom the iniquity of mankind is assigned to (Lev. 16).  Azazel translates, “goat demon.”  The extra-canonical text of the Apocalypse of Abraham mirrors Genesis 15:10-12 when Azazel is portrayed as an unclean bird.  In other extra-canonical text Azazel is referred to as a crafty worm, a serpent, and described as having seven heads, 14 faces, hands and feet like a man’s, and wings on his back, six to the right and six to the left.  Azazel also resides in a place called hell, where he is identified with the person of Satan, where the wicked will be burned by the FIRE of Azazel’s TONGUE; as will be the spiritual significance of the literal words that will come out of Black Bird’s mouth (Prov. 18:21). 

March 2021

Black Bird’s concern over being fully taken over by his muse (one of his possessing demons) and waking-up to a song being completely written and recorded is a huge concern for him.  My understanding of this began when he played me one of his latest recordings two meetings ago as he described the song with mixed feelings: excitement because of the new song, and concern over his lack of participation in the work.  During listening to the song I detected underlying occult and anti-Biblical language and this became a topic of our conversation.  Black Bird has become interested in my Biblical world view and how it relates to his lyrics, his own worldview, and the origin of these beings/spirits/demons living inside of him.  So, he shared with me the lyrics to the last two of his “creative endeavors;” ironic, because they were not HIS work!

For the last 10-12 years I have studied the blasphemous history of the occult, its belief system and the ancient study of mythology and how they all work against, through and attempt to destroy and replace God’s perfect literary work to mankind. His love letter to us, if you will, The Holy Bible.   My body of research is 90,000 + words of condensed, CITED material, from numerous books, lectures, online research, and more.  I have collected a plethora of information over the years learning how the enemy thinks, operates, and intends to work.  To me, this is not a moot point.  I want you to understand where I am pulling the information I pull, and the time I have spent in the subject matter to perhaps give me a qualified understanding of this hidden religion.  To this point, I spent around two hours on each set of lyrics, over the course of two days, pulling up search results from my research and Biblical references to support my hypothesis.  For Black Bird, I painted the story of who this person is, what his true intentions are, and a solution to get out of the hole he has dug for himself. 

In short, what this boils down to is this; in the mythos of Azazel is Abaddon and in the mythos of Abaddon is Azazel appearing in and out of cultures over the course of history using many names while they appear to have the same attributes, and definitely the same motive.  As his demon’s mentioning the person of Abaddon made him shutter as a young man, the mention of the person of Azazel did the same in the last couple months.  They are the same god (emphasis on the lower-case “g”).  The demon making the mention is affirming his authority through these higher-ranking characters, inciting fear to forward the maleficent agenda of their kingdom.  That is to give humankind Azazel’s gift, through Black Bird, the fire (curses/forbidden knowledge) of his tongue…a blasphemy of the gift of God, Jesus Christ, The Word of God, a blessing to mankind.  It’s simple if you remove the intricacies of the messages and reduce them to the ridiculous. 

I will not share Black Bird’s lyrics with you because I respect his personal privacy and his trust in me.  Once the songs are published (his label loves the work BTW), you hard core Horrorcore Rap fans [sarcasm] may hear them from one of your own media sources.  I will continue to work with Black Bird until he renounces the work of Satan and is a follower of Jesus Christ, turns on me, or discontinues communication.   

December 2021

I ran into Black Bird yesterday.  I was amazed that as we approached each other he tries to hug me.  I wasn’t in position so a handshake had to do.  Small talk led to the common denominator of our relationship, his demons.  He has suffered great “Dark” moments since we’ve spoken last.  For instance, in one occasion he described all four of his demons gang-attacking him while he was with his girlfriend.  He went to the floor while his head filled with all four voices screaming at him loudly and pain wracked his body.  It was over within a minute, but alarming none the less.  He tells me that he thinks of contacting me, sometimes in the middle of the night, but his head will burst into pain and what seems like a knife being applied to the back of his eye socket.  His demons don’t like the Spirit I bring to the table.

Black Bird plays me one of his latest songs off his phone.  I could hear themes I’ve never heard in his music before.  Themes of God and Salvation, but the verses are still over toned with themes that contradict the Bible.  I reminded him that “Those guys can be gone, you know this.”  He responds with “I know.  I am trying.”  I understand that he knows nothing of the Bible but is trying to incorporate a sense of God in his work.  That does mean something!

We agree that we need to meet again after the holidays and that we both enjoy our meetings.  Before I left him he moved in for a “Hip-Hop Hug” (AKA the one armed hug and a handshake, Lol). It’s the first time he’s hugged me. That’s huge! I am excited to get back to work with Black Bird and Jesus. 

January 2022

Black Bird and I are communicating by text message until we can get together again.  I am extremely interested in how demons interact with people and ask him about his personal relationship with his own.  Specifically, this conversation with Black Bird has to do with how information is exchanged.  You and I (humans) communicate verbally through many mediums, i.e. face-to-face, telephone, text, email, etc.  Be patient with me as I present ideas to you that may be taboo, foreign to your normal thought process, or even not conventional to your current Christian paradigm.   

For at least the last five years or more, I have understood that demons can, in fact, – or at least to some degree – understand our thoughts.  Perhaps this is not a possibility in the aggregate of my hypothesis, but it does occur in at least a partial degree.

For fifteen years or more I have had pastors tell me that Satan cannot read our minds (I will choose to understand “Satan” here in the collective to describe one who operates in the kingdom of darkness, whether evil spirit or biological (material) entity (non-human)).  The first time I heard a pastor say this I was in strict contrast to his statement and challenged it having my argument leave him without rebuttal and responding, “You’re a deep thinker.” 

I have also developed a cross-phenomenal opinion that the demonic agenda and the alien abduction agenda has the same goals, which in my mind places them on the same team.  The alien abduction phenomenon – regardless of whether one accepts it as reality or not – eerily resembles the demonic agenda.  Mysteriously, samples of abductees of the alien phenomena report the same occurrences without corroborating with each other.  The academic community is home to scholarly publications where abductees report their abduction experiences to include aliens communicating with them telepathically, forced sexual intercourse, extraction of sperm and ova, mostly painful scientific testing on their bodies and traumatic experiences.  Similarly, when possessed (oppressed, influenced, etc., whatever word you comfortably want to use) people describe their demonic experiences to me, AT LEAST on an occultic level, demons communicate with them telepathically, they are forced into sexual situations, some report having “astral children,” are tortured in their bodies and encounter traumatic experiences.  Christian author and lifetime researcher Gary Wayne has also reported a documented account from the area of Ireland in the Middle Ages.  The report documents a “fairy abduction” account, where “If you read the account, you would swear it is a modern-day grey alien abduction account.”  There is nothing new under the sun.  I am triangulating the idea of these phenomena so you might think about the congruent nature of the kingdom of darkness and how the agenda is not local to today.  Do your own research and find the peer reviewed analysis yourself.  I guarantee you will come to your own conclusion; and I’m sure it will be close to my own if not the same. 

I say all this to premise today’s entry.  I was communicating with Black Bird and found an opportunity to question him on this topic.  I have attached this conversation so you can read his words.    

It is worthy to note that demons rely on the host’s ability to see as Black Bird indicates above.  They use our humanity to operate in this material dimension.  The point that Black Bird admits “…they tend to react to thoughts” implies they understand what he’s thinking.  Interesting, isn’t it? They can read his thoughts, but don’t want him to know.

09 March 2022

Jesus gave me a message for Black Bird.  Jesus calmly told me “Time is running out.”  I text Black Bird a message, but as usual I hear nothing back.  Usually his demons give him such a hard time about me he doesn’t respond.  The message is important enough that I walk into his place of business today – his day job.

In the past Black Bird has given me a lot of information about Lil’god but today is the first time he has given me a run-down on the head honcho, his name is “The Fair One.”  Black Bird tells me he’s seen The Fair One on numerous occasions, but each time is brief and is usually in times of his rage.  Black Bird describes The Fair One as having grey skin, black eyes, over seven to eight feet tall, built like a body-builder, with razor sharp teeth and little horns.  He tells me The Fair One bullies him and the others, telling them “I’ve earned my horns,” the way a gang-member would brag about earning ink.  This one is the highest ranking of the four demons.  This is the one they all hate. 

We are talking about his newly unreleased song and he tells me that he doesn’t even remember writing it.  As usual he blacks out, wakes up and the song is completely written, recorded, and mixed down (possession).  I ask him about specifics and he doesn’t even know his own lyrics by heart.  Crazy!  That’s because they are not his! He has to play the mp3 for us to remember what he was telling me about.  He tells me “The song is about a place called geneah, ginneah, genhrea, something like that.”  I question, “Gehenna?”  He said “Yeah, that’s it.”  Gehenna is the place outside the walls of Jerusalem.  It is used as place of child sacrifice and a garbage dump in the Bible (The Valley of the Son of Hinnom) which burns continuously, like hell.  Gehenna is also translated in the Bible as “hell.”  During the song, Lil’god writes “Where I am from, I am killing women and children in hell,” “I am the fire,” and “We’re bringing back the New Gehenna.”

Black Bird goes on to tell me that when his relationship to these demons began, he would understand the relationship to be about “us.”  Now he knows its all about “them,” and there’s nothing he can do about it.  They are preaching the gospel of their religion to Black Bird’s fans.  On that note I mention how Rob Zombie’s song, “More Human Than Human” does the same thing. 

I pull up the lyrics to Zombie’s song and show Black Bird how the song is a character profile of the demons running Rob Zombie.  Like Black Bird, Rob Zombie’s demons love praise and worship.  These are the ones Zombie introduces in his song, along with their character traits: Astro-Creep, The Crawling Dead, Acid Suicide, The Jigsaw Man, Electric Head, The Ripper Man, The Nexus-One.  More Human Than Human is an allegory for the coexistence of these demons living through mankind; dead spirits living out their fleshly desires through our flesh.  These consider themselves more human than human because of their progeny, being hybrid descendants of the unholy amalgamation of Genesis 6.  Not to mention the fact that they ARE eternal creatures, but consider their hosts to be damned (judgement), and given over to them to suffer the second death. 

As I mention Jigsaw Man, Black Bird shutters as he uses his phone to pull up a picture of his record label.  The demonic icon/symbol/mascot of his label is a horned demonic figure named “Jigsaw Man” with the label’s logo on his chest.  Wild!  I tell Black Bird, “This is the god over your label.”  “They use us like meat puppets” I tell Black Bird.  To which he replies, “I remember them (demons) referring to going from one human to another as ‘Jumping Suits.’”

Black Bird is not prideful, he’s quite humble.  Perhaps that’s why Jesus is pushing me to pursue him for so long.  Jesus loves Black Bird.   

09 May 2022

Again, on May 4th, Jesus gives me the same message for Black Bird.  The message is, “I want to know you.  There is not much time.”  The message is reminiscent of Jesus’ message to Tommy Guns a couple years ago.  I text the message asking for a meeting, but there is no reply.  On May 5^th, Jesus gives me the message one more time.  Again, I text the message and there is no reply. 

Today I’m near Black Bird’s place of business, so I stop in.  I mention the text messages.  He tells me “I got a new phone” and gives me his new number.  I explain the messages and allow him to read them off my phone for context.   Black Bird was taken aback at the messages and explains to me how his girlfriend has been “worried” about him for the past week or more.  She has a dream about him that he is dying and will not be around for much longer.  This startles Black Bird and amazes me.  He then begins to describe a dream he had a couple nights ago.  Here is the dream:

He tells me “I am in a car driving up a steep hill, really fast.  As I am getting higher and higher, the road turns into a watery-like substance.  The car is still going, but eventually flips over backwards and goes back down the hill.

As he’s telling me the dream Jesus is downloading the meaning into my head.  In my mind, I see that a pyramid-type structure is the “road” Black Bird is driving up.  I am reminded of Jacob’s struggle with God, the stairway to heaven and Living Water’s.  I tell Black Bird that I know what his dream is about.  He is interested so I tell him, “You were driving up a pyramid which is symbolic of the occultic and world system of success, but as it relates to you (Black Bird), it is the occult system of deception.  As you are rising up this pyramid road, it turns into the Living Waters of Heaven, Jesus Christ.  You are struggling with God, getting closer to the kingdom of heaven, but your four demonic oppressors pull you back down and are holding you back from the Kingdom of Heaven.  

What I didn’t say in the former paragraph is that before I could give Black Bird the dream, the interpretation left my head. I ask BB to pardon me and walk outside. When I do, the download immediately comes back into my brain. I walk back inside and it immediately goes away again. BB and I agree we are both feeling resistance now as a chilled feeling comes over me. There is something working against us in his place of business. I go back outside and the thoughts comes right back into my head again. This time I type the message in a text box on my phone, take it back inside and read it to him.

Black Bird responds in astonishment, “I didn’t tell you the whole dream, but you just told me all of it.  I didn’t tell you that [The Fair One, the name of the highest ranking demon in him; the one who reports to Abaddon directly] was in the car with me.  He was very angry making me drive to the top faster and faster, but as I got closer is when the road turns into water and the car flips backwards.  When the water appears is when [The Fair One – BB will not say his name] goes crazy with anger and we fall backwards.

So, it appears, The Fair One is trying to complete his mission in Black Bird, but Jesus is interfering and is calling BB to Himself.  This is an amazing story.  We go through some scripture supporting the dream and its interpretation, BB is blown away, so I go for the close.  I ask, “Are you ready to change kingdoms?”  He asks, “What do I need to do?”  I tell him, “Repent, ask for forgiveness, change kingdoms and place Jesus at the front of your life as your new King.” 

About this time a customer walks in the store and begins talking gibberish.  Satan’s such a looser!  The customer is there only a short time and leaves so BB and I get back to business.  I give the closing question again and he bulks.  He tells me, “Man, I am getting a lot of resistance right now [from my four demons] and customers are coming in.  Let me get up with you when I get off at eight pm.”

Eight pm has passed and no call from Black Bird.  Tonight is the closest we’ve been to Black Bird accepting Jesus.  He’s almost there, but he only has a short time!  Can you imagine the uproar in the Kingdom of God when a former Satanist changes teams? 

13 Dec 2022

Black Bird and I haven’t talked much since May, but I feel the “urge” to go see him a week ago.  I’m on a date with my daughter, during which one of our tasks is to stop-in on Black Bird.  All my kids know and like him now.  We pray for him.

My daughter wants to go to the store next to where BB works before we go in to see him.  He sees me pass by and comes out of his place of business to catch me, indicating he wants to talk with me.  When I get into his business, he begins to tell me he wants to get together; that his demons had laid-off him for a while but are now back with a vengeance.  He confides in me with an indirect statement that “My girlfriend told me, if I wanted to try Christianity, she’s okay with it.  She’s still worshiping Freya (Frigg, Nao, etc.), the ‘goddess of love,’” he says, “So she doesn’t need Jesus right now.”  Did you hear that?  He’s telling me he wants to trust in Jesus!

I tell Black Bird that Freya is not only the goddess of love.  Conversely, she is the goddess of war, death, and magic also.  He understands, so I express my interest in meeting her after our meeting, because “If she’s the goddess of love she claims to be, she won’t have a problem being around me, like your demons do, will she?”  We agree and add that a negative reaction from Freya against me would make her a liar.  Amen!

02 Jan 2023

No Jesus for Black Bird today.  I take Black Bird out for breakfast thinking, “Today is going to be the day he accepts Jesus.”  This isn’t the case, however.  The Kingdom of Darkness is fighting hard for him with many distractions.  (1) His music label is blowing his phone up as we are talking.  They are pushing him into making another Horror Cire Rap album full of blasphemies; to which he’s not interested, Amen?  (2) His four demons make him twitch and shake, in the restaurant we’re sitting in.  They’re telling him how much they hate me and that they’ve known him for 24 years (trust us).  Lies!  I bind them, staple their mouths shut, sink them in a steel cage and his head goes silent.  He’s amazed but still he doesn’t switch Kingdoms saying, “I have a lot to think about.”  I’m disappointed, but he’s closer than ever!!!