10 October 2023

Since our last encounter together with Jesus, The Great Oath tells me, “I keep seeing Jesus in His work clothes.”  No doubt, He’s the hardest worker I know.  I ask Jesus to prepare the battlefield, the grounds around us for His purpose today.  I pray for protection, cancel triggers established by the Kingdom of Darkness, send confusion into the camp of the enemy, bind the Strongman and ask the Holy Spirit to navigate our journey today.  We worship the Lord God Almighty with a song of her choice and I’m crying, asking forgiveness and repenting before a Holy God.  I invite Jesus to be with us today, He answers me, “I Am here” and tells Oath, “Yes.”  I test the Spirit and The Great Oath tells me, “I can here two voices. I hear, ‘It is I,’ and ‘I Am that I Am that I Am.’”  The Godhead is with us.  Today we learn the Body of Christ is being divided by self-proclaimed titles, which mean nothing.  Jesus uses my life as an example of The Father’s wrath, shows me two aborted children and that there’s a nursery in Heaven, for aborted babies. 

Oath tells me, “When I read about our last encounter and you linked “Wisdom,” from your family’s encounter to our story with Jesus, I realized how big this thing is” and what she says next stands out as peculiar to me, “Nothing is Wasted.”  I didn’t mention my feelings and we moved on to another topic.  I’m being challenged lately, a bombardment of “Are you a pastor?”  I feel people are trying to discredit me and Oath agrees.  A couple years ago, I go to Jesus and ask, “What am I to you?  I’m not what I was.  I feel this is greater than that, but no one understands.”  Jesus replies with, “Do you need a title?” and shuts me up straight away.  He’s so right!  That encounter with Jesus changed my perception of what He has me doing.  I’m a servant.  I do whatever my King tells me to do.  If I need a title, He will give it.  Outside of that, I am nothing.  The Great Oath adds wisdom to our discussion, “His servants are under attack.  If one [Christian] has a gift of prophecy, another [Christian] will come in the name of the enemy to question or destroy it.  Another will come in the spirit of divination, trying to get us to work outside the area of our gifting.”  Jesus adds, “I need you to understand how I use you, then you will understand how Satan is attacking you.”  Oath continues, “The enemy’s always attacking our gifting.”  Where are you being attacked reader?  Do you know your purpose and gifting?  Are you using what He intended for you?  

I ask Jesus, “What do You want to do with us today, Sir?”  Oath narrates, “He’s not saying anything, but I see you (Troy) sitting with white baggy linen pants, a white oversized tunic with three brown buttons by the collar.  You’re sitting cross-legged.  There’re two children, jumping in your lap, running around you” and she bursts out in tears.  I know immediately that these two children are mine; they’re aborted children.

Oath says, between her sobbing, “These are someone’s aborted babies.  They are laughing, “she’s crying and says, “They’re beautiful.  I see a girl.  She’s so happy.  She’s in a white dress with yellow stitching, stockings, patten leather shoes and she’s jumping into your arms.  The other’s a boy.  He’s wearing the same outfit as you.  He has thick brown hair; he’s putting his arms around your neck” and Oath is sobbing.  She adds, “They are so beautiful” and I ask Jesus, “Are these my children?”  He replies, “Yes.”  Oath continues, between her crying, “You look younger (she’s seen my Facebook pictures), muscular, like you work out, a lot.  Really strong (not like now, Lol).  You have huge traps, arms and back.  There’s so much joy between you three.”  I’m concerned about the aborted babies.  I know He’s showing me them for a reason.  I’m not afraid, I know about some throughout my life, but I’m nervous as to why He’s showing me.  We all have to deal with our junk at some point.  I thought I had repented for these things.  Despite my anxiety about the possible judgement, I’m amazed at how Jesus cares about the little things I care about.  I love baggy clothes and, even though I’ve not reached my physical goals in real time, He’s projecting the physically fit me I aspire to be. 

I tell Jesus, in an air of repentance, “I knew one [old sex partner] was going to do it [abort the baby], but I couldn’t stop her.”  Oath says, “This is the boy.  Jesus is saying to me, ‘The girl, you had no idea.’”   The little girl was the product of a young woman I knew when I was in High School.  I never knew she was pregnant.  Oath continues, “I can see her strawberry-blond hair, with ringlets on the ends.”  I ask Jesus, “Will I get to play with my children?”  He responds, “Yes, you will see them again.  They will stay this age.  They don’t know the pains and hurts or worries of the world you live in.  They only know Me.”  Amen. 

Oath describes, “I can see Jesus holding their hands.  He’s taking them back to another place.  It’s gated, but a good place.  This place is just for them and other aborted children.  There are people in there…it’s like, a nursery.  I’ve asked Jesus, years ago, ‘[When I get to heaven] I want to work with the babies who get aborted, in the nursery.’  Now, He’s confirming it to me, there’s a nursery.”  She’s excited, but I’m still a little concerned.  I’m not sure where this experience is going.  I’m a little nervous and Oath sees a big hand, “It’s coming to earth.  There’s a fetus.  The Father is grabbing the fetus and putting it into a bassinet, and He’s healing the baby.  The fetus gets to newborn size, it’s swaddled and an angel walks away with the baby.  There’s a triage in the nursery.  They get baby from the earth and take it to the triage.  The father touches each aborted baby.  His hand [reaches down to the earth] comes back up and in his hand is a baby, ripped into pieces.  They’re completely ripped apart.” 

Great Oath continues, “He brings baby up and blows his breath onto the baby, healing the baby and removing the memory of the pain.  These babies feel the pain of the abortion, Troy.  I see Jesus, weeping also, because He feels the pain.  That baby is put back together and brought to newborn age.  It’s a boy, chunky, rosy and beautiful.  They swaddle him up and take him away.  I see rocking chairs.  The babies are being rocked.  I smell an aroma of mommas.  At the same time I see His hand going down, bringing up another baby.  This baby was killed by Plan B.  I see two pills.  They woman takes the pills and it kills the baby chemically.  Jesus is taking the poison out of the baby.  The Father is healing the baby.  The baby comes to newborn age, is swaddled, wrapped up and taken away.”

The Great Oath is deeply touched by the vision and I’m sitting still, frozen and numb.  Jesus is hugging Oath and tells her, “I’m sorry I had to use you to show this.  You had to see it.  You had to feel it.  As overwhelmed as you are, I’m only giving you a mere portion of how We feel when this happens.  Abortion and child murder is as common today as premarital sex.  It’s not even frowned upon.”  She also hears, “As in the days of Noah” repeated multiple times.  Oath tells me, “I hear Father saying, ‘These people won’t even repent.  They are deceived.  They believe they’ve done no wrong, as if murder is a common thing.  It is murder and you will feel everything you have caused them to feel.  I Am a merciful God.  I Am a loving God.  I Am a God of order and I will avenge the innocent and the lost.”

She continues, “I can hear the angels, yelling, ‘Repent!  Repent!  Turn away, for the Kingdom of God is at hand.’  I can see the clouds and I see Jesus on a horse.  He looks fierce.  He’s looking down beneath the clouds.  There’s water and underneath the water is us.  He’s looking down, looking so intently; like, He’s analyzing, scrutinizing everything that’s been done.  But the army is ready, He is ready.  He’s standing there, blazing, with a fierce countenance.  I hear, ‘I am coming with My sword’” and, just as I found her words peculiar in the beginning, Jesus repeats them, “Remember, nothing is wasted.  Nothing is wasted.” 

I ask Jesus, “Sir, can I ask you a question.”  He gives permission and I continue, “I don’t want to find myself on the wrong side of your judgement.  Will you forgive me for these abortions?”  Oath hears, “The Holy Spirit is asking, ‘Did you forgive her?’”  I answer, “Certainly I do.  That whole thing was a mess and it didn’t honor You.”  He tells me, “Repent, forgive her and forgive yourself.”  I do and Oath narrates what she sees, “I can see you, Troy.  Jesus is holding you.  Your head is in the crook of His neck and you’re weeping.  He’s holding your back, saying, ‘You are forgiven.’”  I ask, “Should I forgive her personally?“  Jesus tells me, “This is sufficient, but you can if you want.  When you do, it will free a part of you and a part of her.  I ask, “Sever a soul tie?”  “Yes,” He agrees and I mention to Jesus, “My wife will want to work beside Great Oath in Your nursery.”  Jesus shows Oath an image of Him hugging my wife, I understand that she will and Jesus says, “There’s rest for her here with Me.” 

For the reader, I want you to understand, the demon I ran with most of my life was a debaucherous spirit. I was a heavy drinker, fighter and hunter of women, mostly in my younger years.  As it relates to this experience with Jesus, I have no idea how many abortions may be hanging in the balance outside of the two mentioned in this experience.  Why am I saying these things?  I am a man of transparency.  So is Jesus.  Nothing is hidden that will not be revealed.   I will have to face many of my shameful acts, everything has to be dealt with, even though we are forgiven.  God said it earlier, “I will avenge.”  I go to Jesus in repentance one more time, for all the women I hunted and possibly impregnated.  He answers, “You know the cost.”  I ask, “What does that mean, Sir?”  He adds, “You have repented and you’ve turned from your wicked ways.  Everyday you seek to draw closer to Me.  You are renewed in Me.  You are forgiven.”  I’m relieved.  I fear God and don’t want to fall on the wrong side of His judgement.  I receive His forgiveness, “Thank You, Sir.”

“Jesus is patting you on the head,” Oath describes, “and I see me with pig tails again.”  She begins crying again and Jesus says, “Lean into Me.  I’m going to heal you from what you witnessed and felt, but I needed you to see it.  I needed you to speak it.  I needed you to share it.”  The Father’s hand comes down from Heaven and is patting her on the head.  He’s ruffling her hair as she explains to me, “My heart feels really full.  He loves us…so much.  He loves when we’re obedient.  He loves when we choose Him, in this dying and demonically oppressed world.  When we choose Him, He will move mountains for us.  He’s saying to me, ‘That’s all for today.’”

The Great Oath tells me, “I will never be able to unsee what He’s shown me today.”  I (Troy) don’t know what to do with the information He’s given us.  How am I to categorize this information, so I ask and He says, “This is part of your journey.  It will be hard to categorize these [experiences].  Include them together.”  “These,” I’m thinking and ask, “Will there be more?”  He answers, “Yes, there will be more.”  I ask if I should hold this information or post it.  He tells me, “Yes, you must post.”  “Do I post it under a new category” on my website because this is nothing like what He normally has me doing.  He answers, “Yes” and I ask, “What will we call this?”  He suggests, “The Journey” and I add “Messages from The Journey.”  Oath sees Jesus is excited when I say this.  I love working with Jesus.  He’s the ultimate coach, always teaching, delegating and willing to co-author with His people.  He tells me, “My Word is in you [Troy].  I Am with you” and Oath sees Him standing there, “He has one hand on your shoulder, Troy, the other is on your heart.  He removes one hand from your shoulder to lift your head up, looks into your eyes and says, ‘I Am with you’ while He’s wiping your eyes with His sleeve.” 

After this experience I run into the house and get my wife.  I tell her what I’ve learned and add, “I know there are more,” so we go to prayer and Jesus shows us another, besides the little girl who was on my lap in me and Oath’s journey.  I receive forgiveness for these, break the soul ties and ask for more, but He doesn’t give me any more for today.  Thank you, Lord, for your mercy and lovingkindness. 

Repent for your murders, readers.  I renounce the agency who murders babies in the name of woman’s health.  These systems and those belonging to them will find themselves on the wrong side of His judgement.  Amen!