When I’m 18 or 19 years old (1988-1989) I’m in the US Army, living in Nuremburg Germany, Bavaria.  One night, I have two, back-to-back “dreams” where my spirit is taken to another place. These dreams are very real, different than any I had before.  I’ve had dreams and visitations since, but these two dreams are remarkable; foundational for my life even and I feel the need to share them with you in regard to “The Work” of this ministry and what I report to you. 

The First Dream

I wake-up in a white room; a never ending white room.  The closest thing I can compare it to is the room featured in the 1999 film The Matrix.  I’m not a big fan of the movie, but this is the closest representation I can compare to; this is not a natural place.  Also, this movie comes out ten years after my experience.  When I first watch the movie I’m amazed at this scene. 

In the room, I am standing next to what seems to be a young man, about my age.  He was wearing shorts, a t-shirt, and what seems to be sandals.  Very casual.  He is standing with his hands behind his back, looking down at the floor (or ground, or whatever it was), and rocking from side-to-side as if to be kicking rocks – but there’s nothing to kick on the floor of white space.  At one point he looks over at me as he’s “kicking around,” we make eye-contact and he looks back down to the ground.  Whoever this guy is, he isn’t worried about me in the least.  He knows where he is, I’m the lost one, looking around in astonishment. 

Suddenly another “man” appears.  This man’s a little shorter than me.  His skin is brown, his hair straight and black, and his eyes are brown.  He looks as if he’s of Middle-Eastern descent.  He has a mid-length beard and mustache the same color as his hair.  He’s dressed in all white:  white suit, shirt, suit vest, tie, socks and dress shoes…everything white, which also makes his skin, hair, and eyes really pop-off.  He’s clean and very impressive to look at. 

When he appears he immediately begins speaking to the other guy in a language I’ve never heard before (angelic tongues). I’ve never heard anything like it before this experience or after.  I look over at the young man beside me and I notice two things.  First, he’s “locked-up” in the position of attention (for all you military minded readers)!  By his mere presence, the man in white commands authority in this place. Secondly, I look at myself and I too am in the position of attention.  My body is locked-up, like the other guy, but my spirit is still looking around.  In this place, my spirit is working independently from my body even though they are one. 

When the man in white is done speaking to the young man, the young man disappears and his clothes fall to nothing.  This alarms me.  The man in white then turns his focus to me and starts speaking to me in plain English.  He tells me “Because of your association with him [the young man] you’ve been given a choice.”  He continues, “Either your life will be taken away from you at a young age and it will bring great pain to those who love you, or your ability to have children will be removed.”  I’m not given the opportunity to rebut the verdict against me, nor do I feel the need to; I just know he’s right!  I never say a word, but I begin contemplating the options in my head as he stands waiting, patiently.  As I come to the conclusion in my head…bam, he’s gone and so are my testicles! They were gone!  So by this, you know I chose option number two. 

Waking up from this experience is like one coming up out of the water from drowning.  I gasp for air and immediately feel between my legs to find my testicles are still there. Somehow I fall back asleep; seemingly, immediately. 

The Second Dream

When I’m a young boy, my mother, aunt, cousin take a trip to Walt Disney World in Orlando Florida. I don’t remember much about this trip.  I do remember when we’re in the hotel room, my cousin (1 year younger than I) is complaining about being hungry. In this second dream I wake-up to this situation, but we are grown.  We are sitting in the hotel room, she’s really complaining about her hunger and my mother suggests, “Don’t worry.  I’ll take care of this.”  She pulls out what seems to be an old dusty ancient book with weird markings.  She throws it on the table and dust flies. She opens the book, licks her fingers and flip’s through the pages.  She finds her desired page and begins reciting a spell in another language (demonic tongues). Bam…the lights go out, come back on and we’re all sitting crisscross apple sauce on the floor, at the points of a pentagram.  The room is now dimly lit by candles; if it’s even the same room, I don’t know.  I have reason to believe we’re projected to a different location; like another location in the spirit realm.  Candles are strategically placed on and around the pentagram as well as all around the room.  Placed in the center of our crossed legs is a tea-cup sized saucer.  Inside this saucer is a young rose bud, not fully budded, but just beginning to open and it’s sitting straight up, all by itself.  Inside the rose bud is a piece of raw meat.  We don’t do anything. We’re just sitting there in a dark, candlelit room and my cousin belts out, “I’m thirsty too.  When am I going to get something to drink?”  My mother suggests helping again, begins flipping pages and I immediately wake-up.  The way in which I awake is much like the first time, like coming up out of water. 

Up to this point in my life I’ve never been interest in any of the details of these dreams or what they represent.  Now that I’m researching and operating in this subject area (18 years later), I wonder how I could have known all the significant details that make-up these scenes with no prior knowledge.  These experiences are very significant to me and I always reflect back on them during the course of my life. 

Clarification…to date

For the majority of my life I believe both these experiences to be satanic.  Also I never forget the intimate details of either of them – they remain mostly clear to me.  Over time I would tell people these dreams and get different reactions.  The wildest reaction I’ve ever received is when I meet a woman in a bar in Germany who claims to be a witch. I tell her, “You’re a witch?  Let me tell you about these two dreams I had and maybe you can tell me what they’re about.”  I tell her and it’s as if her hair becomes disheveled for no reason; we are inside, there’s no wind! Her countenance changes and she tells me “Get the F… away from me!” as she walks away.  I find her reaction to be funny at the time, but of course her reaction – being a witch – also makes me think these dreams/experiences are totally evil!  The following is a little about what Jesus has shown me about these dreams over the years. 

The First Dream

When I meet my wife, we base our relationship on the fact that are both Christians, but we had left Jesus and were both miserable.  We decide to get married, not because we were “in love,” but because if we we are going to move forward with our relationship, we need to honor God with it and be married before Him (this is in two weeks of meeting. We get married 30 days later).  I tell her “I don’t think I can have kids, but I’ve always aspired to have a large family.”   She acknowledges, but this is never a factor for us getting married.  After we’re together about six months, we decide to “try” and get pregnant.  She gets off birth control and in a couple months we’re pregnant.  The night she brakes the good news to me, I’m asleep on our bed.  She wakes me to give me the news, very enthusiastically, and runs back into the bathroom afterward.  As she runs away, Jesus places the first dream/experience into my head and begins “pouring” its meaning into my brain.  Here are the basics of what I hear:

In the first dream/experience, the young man beside me is the demon running me; I believe the generational demon who’s causing the sexually deviant lifestyle I’ve come into agreement with.  The man in white is an angel, sent to pass judgement on both me and the demon; as you’ll remember, I was given a choice.  I still have no idea what the angel tells the demon in the angelic tongue, but the act of God passing judgement like this can be found in 1 Chronicles 21:11-14 where God gives King David a choice of three punishments. King David’s judgement was national, mine was familial.

The reason for the “infertility” judgement is because of my family’s past.  Some of this my parents understand and some they don’t.  My family line isn’t going to be allowed to continue through me.  As a result of my broken covenant relationship, I am to be the last of my ancestral line.  Despite a life of unprotected debauchery and extreme sexual promiscuity I never have a child.  I should have children all over the world. I’ve been under the impression that I’m unable to have children and always think back on this dream/experience as a possible explanation, as ludicrous as the thought is to myself and others. 

When I decide to LIVE for Jesus, He changes the course of my life and “opens my womb.”  I know I don’t have a womb, but this is Bible language and I now understand that.  The Lord is the one who opens and closes the womb. 

Since then a miracle has happened.  I have six children, back-to-back-to-back.  Seventeen years of uncountable, unprotected sexual experiences and nothing.  I move to Jesus and the flood gates open up. 

Later in life, Jesus allows me to understand the decision not to cause my family great pain is a decision for life.  I chose to live.  On a side note, as it relates to the other decision, I did almost die in an accident when I’m 22-23 years old.  This accident puts me in a concussion and – even though I’m walking, talking, working, and living – I lose a year of my life as a result.  When I’m found I’m almost dead, hanging upside down in my SUV, barely gurgling in my own blood.  They cut me out of the vehicle and medevack me by helicopter to a hospital.  My wife later points out that this may have been the incident the angel was telling me about; the one that was supposed to claim my life.  I agree with her. 

The Second Dream

Straight demonic.  Satan is trying to throw me off the message of the first experience; which he did for many years, until I was 36.  Jesus continues to reveal points of these experiences to me over time, but at the end of 2019 He reveals more to me about the witchcraft aspect of this experience and how it relates to my family’s history.  I’m still trying to find out what the raw meat (human?) in the rose buds represents.  Jesus will allow me to know when it’s time, and the rabbit hole will continue to get deeper.  This also has something to do with why I am so sensitive to witches, witchcraft, and end up running into them everywhere I go, my whole life. 

5 June 2023

Last night, my wife, oldest daughter and I meet with Jesus. I call this forum the Kingdom Intelligence Forum. Something’s happened with one I pray for which connects her history with mine. Jezebel is the common denominator as I dig into the issue looking for answers and I’m returned to the second dream indicated above. I ask Jesus, “Is the rose in the saucer Jezebel?” At first he says, “Witchcraft” then He tell me “Yes” about Jezebel. She is the rose bud! I continue and ask “Is the meat in the rose bud human?” He affirms, “Yes” and I know there was human sacrifice, somewhere in my mother’s bloodline, which allows Jezebel into everyone in that line. He instructs me how to break her off of me and my family, everyone including me and my descendants after me, I cauterize the bloodline right before me and cleanse us from her filth with the Blood of Jesus.

Conclusion

What I believe to be two dreams from hell turns out to be real experiences where Jesus is reaching out to me in the first and Satan is keeping me on a track to destruction in the second.  Since I’ve been in ministry I’ve learned that Satan always attacks when The Lord is doing something in our lives.  This is to deceive and even discredit messages from God.  In these experiences, the first is vivid white, involves an angel, and is a holy, safe-place where messages can be delivered.  The second is dark and full of satanic imagery. 

On 28 June 2023, my daughter and I are in a Kingdom Intelligence Forum meeting with Jesus and He tells me that the “White Room,” in which I meet the angel and other young man, is a place called the “In Between.” I ask, “Is this a neutral area?” Jesus tells me “Yes” but continues that “Satan also uses these meeting areas.” So, I understand these areas to be safe and neutral, but used by both Kingdoms to exchange information, have meetings, make deals, etc., with humans.

God, in His mercy, allows me to choose life as opposed to death, even as I’m dishonoring Him with the life He’s given me.  Talk about merciful! He’s patient with me until I make the turn and recognize His calling on my life.  Thank you Jesus. Amen.